Comments on: These Ancient Stones

By: Eve

Eve — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 17:57:19 +0000

Deb, yes it seems easier to me to blame it (one way or another) on others “out there.” I see myself and just about everyone else doing this (losing our heads, really) with the politics these days also. Normally reasonable (appearing) people are saying things like, “… the mess those Republicans have gotten us into!” or “the mess those Democrats have gotten us into!” We’re all saying the same thing.

It’s like Pogo said: We’ve met the enemy, and he is us. No truer word has been said.

By: Eve

Eve — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 17:54:33 +0000

Irene, on the one hand there’s no “getting let off.” On the other, we can all be let off by being human, vulnerable, and imperfect. I try to remember to go gently with myself. I try to remember that I am not the only one in charge of my growth. The plant doesn’t fret if it doesn’t grow fast enough or well enough, or urge the sun to shine harder. I need to take a lesson from my little daisies and just breathe. That’s where being in the moment comes in, huh?

By: deb

deb — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 23:19:54 +0000

I grew up with a mother who believed she was responsible for everything others felt, thought or did. Which meant that when I did something she didn’t like, I would hurt her, do it to her. What I did had nothing to do with her but she persists in these beliefs to this day.

It’s so hard to own your own emotions, so much easier to blame them on someone else and so completely and utterly ineffective and hurtful.

As always, thank you for making me think, and smile.

By: Irene

Irene — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 03:19:40 +0000

There must be something going around. I’ve had a crappy week or so dealing with really big mirrors that I’ve had head-ons with. I know that I have to change, that it is my responsibility to consider and reconsider my reactions to certain others, even when someone inside me is screaming “it’s just not bloody fair!” But I seem to just get to a point where those internal emotional and physical responses have such a powerful life of their own. How does one change those? How do I steady that rising wave and balance the seas? My mind knows the source (issues of self worth) and where it stems from, but thats just not enough. This is where your reference to “digging up the ancient stones” is of interest to me. At what point do we actually shift inside our bodies, our being-ness? Because at some point, the mind can do no more. We can dig and dig, and (more or less) completely understand with our minds, but to bring full awareness into that split second of unconscious reaction to someone or something… well… I truly find that to be an extreme challenge.
So if I own completely, as I do, that I bring these things upon myself because I do not give myself unconditional love and support and value… dear God, my head is spinning! It feels like a core stone that will not reveal itself to me, not to my mind, at least.

And then I hear “constant mindfulness” come from somewhere. There’s no getting let off, is there?